Reflection

I went back and read the post from yesterday and thought, "do I really think I am fat?" How often do we call ourselves that. It doesn't matter if we are 10 pounds overweight or 100 pounds overweight, we abuse ourselves by calling ourselves names. Is it to shame us into doing something about it? Well, I have been doing this for years and years and I am still.....well.......fat. Overweight? Not fit? Chunky? Pick one that makes you feel better. I know that you reading this (and you know me), you have cringed hearing me say this about myself. I know that you are already coming up with excuses for me to make me feel better.

1. Lisa, you have a lot going on.
2. Lisa, look at what you deal with everyday.
3. You will do it when you are ready.
4. Your focus is your family right now.

The truth is.........I am getting older and am starting to FEEL older. I will be leaving my 30's in a year and a half and want to be strong and healthy in my 40's. I look back and wonder why I didn't commit to this before. Why did I stop every time and not follow through? Why now? There is only one reason. I AM WEAK. Mentally that it. If it hurts, I stop. If I'm winded, I stop. How is it that I can be strong in every other aspect of my life except this one? It is time to change the way I think. It is time that I put myself on the list of priorities....maybe near the top for a change. How about in the top spot?

I'm going to do this. Will you keep me accountable? Pray for me? Send me encourage messages? Even start getting healthy with me? Damon is working out with me but (this is embarrassing) all his measurements are smaller than mine. He weighs more, thank goodness! I need some ladies on this journey with me.

I did a "class" today that was 15 minutes long but when I was done, I felt like I had worked out for an hour. Short and intense. I like that! Tomorrow is my rest day. I think I will take that day and..........rest.

Yes, my "before" pictures (click pictures tab) are blurry. I blurred them on purpose. I will un-blur them when I have completed the program in 12 weeks.

Have a great day!